not fit today - withdrawal diary

[ajva]

I have decided not to go swimming today. It's a week since I did any exercise, but I just can't face it today. I've been starting to get quite subtle SV withdrawal. It has a half-life, you see, and now I calculate I have about 1/2^6 the amount in my bloodstream I usually have. SV is also used as a mood stabiliser to treat manic depression and as a preventative against migranes. Although that's not what I took it for, it obviously still has had effects on me relevant to those. Had slight neuralgia last night, although it passed quickly.

Perhaps somewhat predictably, I am experiencing some negative emotions at present. A bit down, a bit afraid, a bit lonely, a bit weary, a bit like I want to have a big night out to be around people, a bit like I can't be bothered and want to be on my own, a bit tired, a bit restless. And a bit guilty that I'm not going to swim, but apart from anything else I'm afraid to go on my own today in case I should have a fit. But it's so unlikely to happen that I feel as if I'm making an excuse. Oh well, at least I'll be back at kickboxing next week so I'll get some exercise then.

Comments

[booklectica]

Are you thinking about coming out to Goddess? It'd be good to see you if so.

Don't feel guilty about not swimming, please... you really don't sound up to it, and of course you're going to worry about fits under the circumstances, even if it is unlikely to happen.

(Had nice drink with Jon in pub. His girlfriend is called Carrie, he says.)